In my lifetime I’ve collected everything from advertising memorabilia, to craft supplies to Disney merchandise. And it didn’t stop with toys and gadgets. I’m fairly confident I’ve amassed one of the largest libraries of graphic design, craft and movie marketing books in all of Southern California. Yes, I’m the first to admit, I’ve been a collect-aholic, And now I am paying the ultimate price. Weight…pulling on wings. Wind…pushing against flight.
It’s taken several years to reach the decisions I now make more effortlessly. I have feared, faced and fought resistance, defiance, denial, ignorance and indifference. I cluttered my thoughts, crowded my surroundings and drowned my inner voice to the point of mute. I experienced many painful months trying with all my will to extract my voice, my words, my heart but there was simply too much in the way. Today, I am grateful for the conviction of my fight and for my easily distracted mind awakening enough to listen to the cracks within the bulging walls. My choices are now healthier and come from self love.
The true source of peace, creativity and enlightenment comes from within.
We carry within our souls peace and security when we make choices from attunement, not through attainment. We carry within our hearts inspiration by connecting with others from love, not through a set of beautifully crafted instructions or personal gain. We carry within our minds all the wisdom needed when we articulate our words with impeccability.
When we believe we already possess all that is needed, we can finally stop gathering, owning and escaping. We must be willing to be uncomfortable for awhile if we are to detoxify through the great purge and release all that has bound us.